I think right now, I understand the statement "I think of you always." in a truer way. I literally think of my Mother every single minute of the day. I recall voices, stories from my sisters of how my mom and them are coping. I recall what we discussed about her medicines, about her diet plan, what the doctor's feedbacks are, etc etc. I think about my mother's testimony, I think about her dream.
Speaking of dream, I want to share to you a dream my mother had one night. In the dream she is being chased and attacked by 3 men holding a knife, a sword and a gun. The man with a gun is the most persistent of the 3, he shoots her non stop. My mother goes into a room but this guy is still shooting her trying his best to kill her and the other 2 are furious to get her until all of a sudden a Man from a bright light in the room appeared and ask the 3 men why are they pursuing her and then told them to stop because she is His and He loves her. He told them that they cannot touch her or kill her and that she will live.
My mom woke up crying and called my niece then they both prayed. You see, Nanay's liver has 3 tumors on it. For us the symbolism of the 3 killers is the 3 tumors on her liver which is trying to end her life but the Man in the light who is God was there to protect and save her - to give her life.
When I tell people about my mom's condition, they feel bad and I can't take away from them the thought that it's a tough survival for someone who has cancer. It is a sad fact but not for us. Since the day we knew about my mother's condition the Lord has been gracious to us, He has been very comforting and has shown His goodness in every way.
I sometimes worry. I sometimes feel sad and useless that I cannot do anything about it but after a while, after thinking much, I will realize that whatever circumstance I have right now, God is still God. It doesn't change His position of being the God who gives and take away. He holds my mother's life and not only hers but mine and yours so I don't have other choice but to let Him control over our lives.
I only have His promises in my heart. I just think about what He says in the Bible and I'm okay.
that "Never will I leave you nor forsake you" that everyday He is there to listen. He also said
that "By His stripes my mother is healed"
That "whatever our hearts' desires, when we delight ourselves to Him, He will give it"
That “The things which are impossible with men are possible with God.” (Luke 18:27)
That "He is the Lord who heals you.” (Exodus 15:26)
That He said,
“For I will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds,” says the Lord. (Jeremiah 30:17)
So now until the day the doctors say my mom is totally healed from cancer, I will praise You. I won't feel sad or bad because You are there and is listening to all our cries.
My mother is alright. She doesn't feel any pain. Actually when she was diagnosed with cancer, she was also diagnosed with swollen pancreas and gall stones but the Lord has already healed those so now we are concentrating more on binding and rebuking the spirit of cancer/tumor and release the spirit of healing and good health and long life to her. She is into a diet plan, she only eats organic.
And I declare in Jesus' name Nanay is healed.
Blessings ♥
