Monday, June 17, 2013

14 Weeks

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I am on my 14th week - actually going 15 on Thursday. :)

My morning sickness doesnt really happen in the mornings anymore but it would usually start after lunch and would get worst in the evening. I cannot go inside the hawker center or the food courts anymore. I don't like any food that I see. Most of them taste bland.

The last time I had check up, my OB said I have low lying placenta. The placenta is usually attached to the upper part of the uterus, away from the cervix, the opening that the baby passes through during delivery. On rare occasions, the placenta lies low in the uterus, partly or completely blocking the cervix -- called a placenta praevia or low-lying placenta. The level of concern is not too high as I'm still on my early stage of pregnancy but my OB suggested me to stop strenous physical activities including sex. Ha Ha!

I dont feel too much cramps anymore but I think I'm feeling occasional contractions. I dont really know if it is contractions or if it is just the same with cramps but I feel my tummy hardens - abdominal tightening or something. I have a schedule visit to my OB this coming Saturday and will surely report.

Aside from that, all feels normal. Went to church yesterday, I am at work today and just doing the normal stuff. I thank the Lord for that.

Blessings ♥


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Thursday, May 30, 2013

12 weeks

Hi there!

From this I am now on my 12th week. Surprise! Yes, I've been to the OB many times already and since then it's confirmed I'm carrying baby # 2. How's that? Cool, ya?

Baby Peanut is a planned baby. We thought we could have him/her later this year after our major plan is done but unfortunately due to unforeseen circumstance, major plan was moved to next year and I can't wait to get pregnant anymore. If it has to happen now, then let it be. What if major plan will be moved again? Gosh, I'm already old by then. So we prayed and the Lord opened my womb one more time. Haha.

Only few friends and families have known. I'm not excited to post it really on FB. I am actually planning to keep it a secret and then just post my baby's picture when he/she's out. Nyehehehe.

So far, its been a not so easy first trimester. My vomiting is worst. I feel very tired all the time and I having cramps which is a serious thing. On my 7th week, I was suggested to stay home so I had to bed rest for 9 days. It was fine, it really helped me cope with the difficulties. I became a full time mom to Hershey. Hehe. I wake up with her, help Manang prepare her for school, bring and pick her up from school and play with her. I just feel bored when she's not around - that's 5 hours in 5 days Kinder 1 class.

I went back to work feeling energized but the nausea and vomiting never really stopped. Do I have a choice? I have to endure. I was given some meds but really didnt help much. And it's a personal choice not to upgrade my med dosage or add more capsules because I think this is normal anyway and it's a priviledge to have experienced this. Never really had this with my 1st born before.

As of today, I already lost 2.5kgs in 3 months but thank God baby is okay. We had our monthly check up last week and at 11 weeks we already saw baby galloping. Baby Pea is like swimming but doesn't leave his place. Haha. That was so cute! A very active child.

I want to thank the Lord for this blessing. We're so happy. Hershey is very excited she always talk to the baby and pray for him.

Been checking some stuff, like strollers, hospitals, clothes but I guess still too early. :) Let's see in the next coming weeks.

See you again, I plan to update my blog often. I love this moment of my life.




Blessings ♥


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Monday, April 15, 2013

From CNN: Why I fled North Korea

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Editor's note: Hyeonseo Lee was born in North Korea and left for China in 1997. She now lives in South Korea and is an activist for North Korea refugees. Lee spoke at the TED2013 conference in February. TED is a nonprofit dedicated to "Ideas worth spreading" which it makes available through talks posted on its website.

(CNN) -- When I was young, I thought my country was the best on the planet. I grew up singing a song called "Nothing to Envy." I felt very proud. I thought my life in North Korea was normal, even though when I was 7 years old, I saw my first public execution.
My family was not poor, and I had never experienced hunger. But after my mother read me a letter from a coworker's sister who said that her family was dying of hunger, I realized that something was very wrong in my country. A huge famine hit North Korea in the mid to late 1990s, and I began to see suffering, hunger and death around me.

I can't reveal the details of how I left North Korea, but I can say that during the dark years of the famine when I was a young girl, I went alone to China to live with distant relatives. I thought I would be separated from my family for a short time. I could never have imagined that it would take 14 years for my family to live together again.
Since North Korean refugees are considered illegal migrants in China, I lived in constant fear that my identity would be revealed and I would be repatriated to a horrible fate back in North Korea.
One day, my worst nightmare came true when I was caught by the Chinese police and brought to the police station for interrogation. Someone had accused me of being North Korean, so they tested my Chinese language abilities and asked me tons of questions. I thought my life was over, but I managed to control all the emotions inside of me and answered their questions. They let me go. It was a miracle!
Hyeonseo Lee
Hyeonseo Lee
After 10 years of hiding my identity and living in fear in China, I decided to risk going to South Korea. Even though adjusting to life in South Korea was not easy, I made a plan and started studying for the university entrance exam. Just as I was starting to get used to my new life, I received a shocking phone call -- the North Korean authorities intercepted some money that I sent my family through a broker, and as punishment, my family was going to be forcibly removed to a desolate location in the countryside.
They had to get out of North Korea quickly. So I started planning how to help them escape.

I took a flight back to China and headed toward the North Korean border. Since my family couldn't speak Chinese, I had to guide them, somehow, through more than 2,000 miles in China and then into Southeast Asia. The journey by bus took one week, and we were almost caught several times.
One time, our bus was stopped and boarded by a Chinese police officer. He took everyone's ID cards and started asking questions. Since my family couldn't understand Chinese, I thought we were going to be arrested. As the police officer approached my family, I quickly stood up and told him that these were deaf and dumb people that I was chaperoning. He looked at me suspiciously, but luckily, he believed me.
We made it all the way to the border of Laos, but I had to spend almost all of my money to bribe the border guards. Even after we got past the border, my family was arrested and jailed for illegal border crossing.
After I paid the bribe and fine, my family was released after one month. Soon after, they were arrested and jailed again in the capital of Laos. This was one of the lowest points in my life -- my mind and body felt completely drained, and I felt like a failure. I did everything to help my family get to freedom -- and we came so close. And now my family was thrown in jail just a short distance from the South Korean embassy.
I went back and forth between the police station and immigration office, desperately trying to get my family out ... but I didn't have enough money to pay the bribes. I lost all hope.

At that moment, I heard a man's voice asking me: "What's wrong?" I was so surprised that a total stranger cared enough to ask. He would only give me his first name. With my broken English and a dictionary, I explained the situation, and without hesitating, the man went to the ATM and paid the rest of the money for my family and two other North Koreans to get out of jail.

I thanked him with all my heart, and then I asked him, "Why are you helping me?" ... "I'm not helping you," he said. "I'm helping the North Korean people."

I realized that this was a symbolic moment in my life. The kind stranger symbolized new hope for me and other North Koreans when we needed it the most. He showed me that the kindness of strangers and the support of the international community are truly the rays of hope that the North Korean people need.
Eventually, after our long journey, my family and I were reunited in South Korea.

http://edition.cnn.com/2013/04/14/opinion/lee-north-korea-refugee/index.html?iid=article_sidebar

Blessings ♥

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Thursday, April 11, 2013

I pray everyday

This morning I made a poem about what I do in the morning.

photo source internet




When I wake up in the morning I pray to the Lord
I thank Him for the brand new life, for His blessing unfold
I say the names of my loved ones, and ask for His protection
Oh Lord there is nothing I can do, I leave them in your affection

I ask the Lord to always love us
Our lives to Him we entrust
I ask for His angels to be around
With their wings they’ll surround

I know the Lord answers prayer
So I pray not only in despair
When I'm happy, sad, or whatever I feel
I ask the Lord to be with us forever and for real



Blessings ♥


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Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Mom has / had cancer

Its been more than a year since my mother bid farewell to us and the world. She had liver cancer and was on the 4th stage when we found out. It was a well lived life and I AM 100% sure that she is in heaven now so I am okay with that part. BUT, I will NEVER be okay, really. I miss her everyday but again and again I thank the Lord that He is always there to comfort me whenever I feel down.


Few months back I saw a child with her mother. Her mom wears a pretty scarf to cover hair loss, looks thin with restless eyes. I felt sad. I was with Hershey then. I told her that the kid's mom is sick like Nanay but let's pray she wins over it because her child is still small (7 or 8 maybe) it's still early to go.

The mom and kid looked happy. She was pointing stuff from a store asking her child if she wants it. They laugh and smile as they walk. I have to stop. I can't take the pain and sadness of the future they may have.  The girl was still young to lose a mom.

With that I was thankful. I had my mom for 29 years, she lived a fulfilled 68 years of her life. She was complete. She was happy. She may not see my future anymore and can't attend on Hershey's graduation, birthdays, etc but she is better and on the best place now. I am happy to know that.

To all moms who are fighting against cancer, my heart and prayer goes to all of you. God bless you.

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Blessings ♥


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Monday, April 01, 2013

5 Weeks

I have been refreshing the Due Date Calculator at the Baby Center website, it feels unreal. I am almost 2 weeks delayed on my period but my pregnancy tests have come out negative. Thus, the waiting game.

If I will be pregnant, I want it now. Para matapos na agad. :)


My husband who is the most excited about this has already booked me an appointment to my OB. Dr Eunice Chua of Thomson Medical Center who was also my OB when I had Hershey. I will do a PT again Wednesday, if it is positive, then we will proceed with the OB visit on Saturday. If not, I don't know but I am never late with my period - I'm on time, 28 days cycle.

We will see.

Psalm 127:3Children are a gift from the LORD; they are a reward from him.

Blessings ♥


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